This interview contains one of the most vivid descriptions of the spiritual side of Aikido Founder Morihei Ueshiba. It is a first-hand account of the Founder entering a trance state and speaking directly with the Kami. You have never read anything like this. – Editor
“I could see him so clearly, standing there outside the door, bathed in the electric light from inside the room, as dignified, resolute and noble as ever. Besides his strong personal “presence,” he also struck me as being very large physically, standing there filling the whole doorway as if a giant rock had suddenly appeared there. The space around him seemed strange, as if filled with a vacuum, overlaid by a kind of rich tension, looking nothing like the hallway of an inn. I even heard my ears ring with a bell-like sound I never heard before. He said, “Mariko, it’s dark out here; let me in!” so I answered, “Yes, of course, please come in.”
I remember seeing him there so clearly, in every detail, even down to his white tabi socks. At that moment, I suddenly felt like I was losing my balance, like I’d suddenly fallen under the influence of some sort of strange “universal gravitation.” It was like I’d run into a massive wall made of particles of wind. For an instant is was as if some intangible “wave-motion” was pushing toward me, like a kind of air pressure, but not the result of any kind of actual wind. It so affected me that I could barely stand up and I even felt like I might actually fall over backwards! I sort of tottered there for a bit, trying to regain my balance. I also wondered briefly why, in spite of all the aikido training I’d been doing, I was having such a hard time maintaining my center. And of course I felt even more pathetic and embarrassed with O-Sensei standing there watching me the whole time as I stumbled around.
Finally I think one of my knees touched the mat. The dimensions of time and space were so strange that I became totally disoriented. At that time I ended up in a fetal position and began to feel really sick. I slowly began to fall sidewise. Involuntarily, my head fell to my chest. I tried to raise it to the normal position but it was just impossible. Not only was my head heavy, I felt like some kind of massive power was over my neck giving me the feeling of being cut open. My body was continuing to fall and was getting closer to the floor. Then I saw out of the corner of my eye O-Sensei dashing into the room to my aid to support my body and help me into a seated position.”